Mint-chan's journal

[Mint Adnade]

Today's been one of the worst days in my life...well..besides Leon..and Zero...at least I can have a decent happy conversation..Today was the Day of Silence, and I was so sickened at the things my dad was saying about it...it made me feel upset and hurt on the inside, it added to the hurt i've been feeling this past week and a half..my heart just wants to cry out...this fleeting pain..how much more can I take before I lash out..before I break..? She makes me feel alive...I still wonder if she knows just how much she does...Sometimes I find it impossible to word. Anyway, studying the holocaust in school, which makes me sick to my stomach...how can one person have such hatred toward people he didn't even know..? Seems impossible to me..it takes way too much energy to hate someone...

and lately..I've felt completely drained...

School..? Pfft..the harder I try, the worse I feel, not to mention my grades are going down the drain, and my head aches everyday...

and this thing with my back...maybe Leon-kun is right...I do whine an awful lot...but she's all I have...I feel like she's the only one I can trust...

Today exactly one year ago, my Aunt Diane passed peacefully in her wheelchair in her ghetto nursing home. Alone, in her wheelchair...

I could have seen her the night before she died...You know the only thing I said..because I had no idea..?

"It's boring there, there's nothing to do.."

How could I have said that!? Did I cause her so much grief..? and the drug abuse...how much pain did she endure each day..?

Thousands of thoughts flood my head every second..and that's all I think about...

Then there's...death....war.....Suffering...

Just thinking about It makes me Vomit....><. What keeps me going you ask..?

Her smiling face...

Anyway, I'm still confused on religion, so i'm choosing to look it up for the remainder of the night...

I want to call Leon, but somehow I feel like I'll be intruding on her and Sy's alone time...

How I regret not being born a male sometimes....why can't I be there for her like Sy is..?

Then again, being Female makes me feel gentle sometimes...

and I like that feeling...>_>

I'll write later...

[Mint Adnade]

Today is different, still feel like crap in a way, and my ear is killing me! but damn, today was an okay day, I got to talk to leon on the phone and now at the moment on the compy, I guess it was sort of a lazy day today, my teacher picked out my paper on the holocaust and told me it was beautiful and that She wanted to keep it so she could read it out loud. Writing makes me happy..especially when she recognizes that I really do put my heart into it!

The holocaust may make me sick, but I can write some really great stuff about it..because...I see their pain in my head..and I identify and relate as well as I can..not to brag...but I was really happy that she said that...^^;

Anyway, planning on drawing more pics for Furuba (fruit's basket) if i spelled that right..but uh...yeah...I love that..pictures are so fun for it...

Planning on getting my scanner up and working again too..so I can scan pics for Zero,Leon, and Jay..(sheila). Sy too..can't forget him..

Lately I've felt lonely though...I mean...the kind of lonely you get when you don't have a boyfriend or girlfriend to share things with..(mind you, I'm very happy around leon ^^ very) but she understands..she has Casey...

I wish I had someone who loved me...it's strange really..it's so hard to find someone truthful and not out to get some...

that's hard too, pressures...I'd never lose my virginity this early..but many still think I have..like my dad and sister...damn them...

BIG Tiff called me a bitch today so I told her to fuck herself..XDD funny huh..?

Oh..and Josh pike was messing with me..calling me a fat bitch...

as if i weren't self conscieous enough...

I told him to get his raggly teeth the hell away from me and die.

But anyway, I don't feel that depressed today...my ear is just Killing me..

I think I'm getting an infection....>_< I didn't tell Leon yet, because I don't want to complain..but I'm sure she'll read this and kill me later for it...^^;;

I'll write later...

Xiao..

[Mint Adnade]

Today is an okay day. Friday I went to Leon's, Yay! I finally got to see her...us being in two different schools is really killing my heart...

I hate not being able to see her at least once a day...

So when I got there, we hung out, role played a bit, y'know, the good stuff...It was wonderful..because really late at night..we talked...I was so happy..I know her communication has improved much over the period of our friendship..but is mine...

Is mine crawling back into the first stages of a love story..? I want to tell her everything...but sometimes..I feel like i'll flood her with my problems...I know she wants to listen..but what If I whine too much and bug her..? These are my own insecurities...my fault..

Orion says he won't be back around, which really makes my day crappy...

we were a trio of best friends..what happened to the bond we shared? He needs a break from his life? Then he's hanging out with some girl..? Sounds fine if you ask me...what about ka-san? What about leon-kun..? We can help him..I know we can! He can tell us anything..why doesn't he understand?

Getting off that topic, school was okay today, kind of a lazy day of all my teachers telling me I'm too smart to be failing classes..but I can't concentrate when leon's not around...

I really can't! I know it sounds corny, but hey! I got good grades when she was back at the middle school with me...but now...

they're all going down the fudge tube...I can't concentrate...Maybe I'm just depressed..?

I have no clue...I feel like a burden, but saturday when she was talking to Sy, they kept telling each other they loved each other, then I felt crappy..I was so happy for her...I'm so afraid to lose her...and she keeps reasuring I won't...but...nobody ever really knows what the future might bring..what If I'm just afraid of change..?

Leon has her someone...someone she can marry and love forever...

Will we ever be like that..?
Maybe I just need to push off the topic..but uhm...anyway...

Friday was funny as hell..

These two boys were sitting in the Meijer grass and kissing so I yelled penis out of the window loud and in an opera voice (cause I have a virbrato I guess) but anyway, they flipped me off, so I screamed Fudge packers as loud as I could...

And at open windows...XDDD

I'm such an idiot..

There were two fights at my school of course, always fights...

Makes me worry...

then on saturday, I begged to go back to Leon's, but was threatened with a grounding...

So I played it off cool to her..which probably really hurt her feelings...

"My mom wants me to spend time with her"...no...my mom wants me to cover for her drinking...

So I hung out with Casper, and talked to him..

He gave my arms, my head, and my back a massage..

He's really good, my body doesn't hurt anymore..^^;;

He's older, but talking to him really calmed my nerves...my white as a ghost capser, if he were younger..
I would talk to him about dating! XD but for now, he's just like a big brother

We wrestled and he kept rick away from me...eww, Rick, and Nick refused to see me because he broke a window over there in some gang fight...my lord..whoever you are...

Protect me from that neighborhood and the god forsaken people in it..

I wanted to be at Leon's..I really did...

but anyway...I'm drawing Furuba pics..yay! I love to draw them...and listen to "Wish you were Here"

I've been trying to call leon to see if she wants to see Silent hill with me but noone answers...she's probably busy..but I know she really wants to see it..

God please let them answer the phone...

Anyway...

I talked to Zero on the phone last night..

he's really fun to talk to...even thought I get really nervous and talk a million miles a minute...makes me embarrassed...

but yeah, it was fun, I think I made him laugh a few times...

but I probably annoy him..but yeah..anyway

Sy and my character are going to hook up, he said sure when Leon asked because I guess she wanted us to..

I'll have to work around with that and talk to Sy...

but anyway, I gotta get ready now..

I'll write later...xiao

[Mint Adnade]

*sigh* Today and yesterday were two extremely exhausting days...

Yesterday I wasn't on because I got in a crap load of trouble, because my dad claimed I hurt my little brother when he was just throwing another hissy fit...I think my dad is really wrong for hitting me in the face....It doesn't hurt as bad as him telling me my opinion and my feelings don't matter and that I wasn't spoken to therefore I cannot speak...he acts like I'm not allowed to feel..

I just don't see why he can't understand that I feel, think, love, and hurt just like everyone else...

He called me hardheaded and retarded...Here's where he's not thinking...

I'm his kid! I came from his baby batter damnit! Duh! Look who's the retarded now you asshole!!!

Besides that, my side has a bruise again because my dad tried to hit me and I guess he aimed lower this time...he told me to move my hands (I was wiping away tears I didn't want him to see) or he was going to drill my face right through them....

ugh...there is no god..

But enough about depressing things...

I think I have an ear infection..o.o;;; But I still talked to Leon-kun last night, it's great, we're not only communicating by computer anymore...it makes me feel better to hear her voice and see her beautiful face....

Tell me...am I wrong for loving her? Meca acts like it, I feel extremely akward around her because all she does is give me looks of disgust, and looks at me(everytime I talk to Jesse) like I'm going to molest someone...

Fuck that man...

Anyway, My scanner is back on track officially!

Yay! I can scan my pictures now...

Scheduling for classes for next year is beginning this week, and I'm pretty sure I want to be in High school choir...(please let me get better at my crappy singing) Choir is very important to me....

Also, to top off Choir, my friend Britney and My friend Korynn begged me to try out for cheerleading, so I told them I would...

Even if I did become one, it won't change who I am...

Leon's still going to be my best friend

and Tiffani will still be my sister..(she acts like I'll turn into a prep)

But really when my sister talks like that, it makes me realize that she's just as biased and stereotypical as her...

Splice was still cool as hell, despite him being a football player...

Anyway, we have a choir concert in two weeks and I want to ask Leon kun and Talan to come and see me sing...

If you concentrate on someone's mouth, you can pick their voice out of everyone elses' and I think I've improved...

On another note, I'm sick as hell and I could barely get up this morning...which really pissed me off....

Why does this keep happening...? mmph...anyway...

I wanted to go to Leon's for a bit to see her really really bad, but my dad was being a dick, so I'll leave it at that...

anyway, I'm going to stop and write later...

Bye <3


oh...and look at these lyrics for our choir song..

Shoshone love song:

Fair is the white star of twilight and the sun moving toward sky's end...

Fair is the white star of twilight and the sun moving toward sky's end...

But he (she) is fairer, more worth loving (he) my heart's friend!

Fair is the white star of twilight, and the moon roving to sky's end...

Fair is the white star of twilight, and the moon roving to sky's end...

But He (she) is fairer, more worth loving, he (she) my heart's friend!

he (she) is fairer, more worth loving, he (she) my heart's friend!

Such a tender song...

[Mint Adnade]

Today's and last night were two horrible days...

I was telling Leon-kun on the phone last night how my mom and dad kept saying to do this and do that and my mom started to scream at me for "talking crap about her"

She hears my sister complain all the time when she's on the phone and doesn't say a thing to her...

So we argued and she lied to my dad and told him I refused to get off the phone, and my mom hung up on Leon....

I was so PISSED I swear I could have grabbed a knife and stabbed one of them....

especially my dad...because he always gets in my face and tells me what I think and what I don't think...

So we all argued and my mom says it's Leon-kun's fault, like usual...

I tell her that's the only person she can blame, and she needed to stop blaming her because she has no one else too....plus, Leon doesn't affect how I act at home, an extremely aching ear and head affects how I act at home, surely they could have understood that if they stopped screaming at me for just one moment and took the time to listen...

They made me so angry, I told them I rather go to school then stay home, because they Grounded me for two weeks from nothing but Leon's house!!

I cried and cried and cried all night...I couldn't stop...I was looking forward to seeing her so badly...

My mom just laughed at me and told me to stop crying because I couldn't see her because It wouldn't change anything..

Plus anything I said to my mother, she went downstairs and blew it out of proportion, knowing my dad would become angry at anything because he couldn't play his game in peace...

My mom's a freaking baby and she's refusing to take her medicine AGAIN

Which is hell for everyone...

Plus I had to hear the rest of the night how Tiffani's a good girl and I'm a completely bad kid...

If I'm so bad, how come all my teacher's tell me I'm wonderful and they love having me in their classes....? Or are they lying to me because they know I have family problems..?

Who cares...psh...I told them I wasn't talking to them for two weeks then..

They laughed and said "Yeah, right" So I'm sticking to it...

If I'm in my house, and my parents speak to me..

I'm not talking to them..That's it..I'm ignoring them and letting them roast in pain for a while...
(Doubt that will happen though)

*sigh* now that that's over...sorry (had to rant somehow, plus I feel like a jerk that they hung up on Leon and I couldn't call her back)

Last night was fun, talking to Leon and Zero in a chat, and in the other chat Sheila and Leon....

Drew a cute Ryou Pic...da da da...Making RenjiXRyoushi really really soon...

If I can stop and catch a breath, my head is pounding...

Maybe I could write a good lemon for them....=3 who knows..

Maybe they'd like that...I dunno I'd have to ask...

but anyway, I feel alot better than last night...I just ache to talk to Leon....

Ache...

Another factor, what am I going to do this weekend now that I can't go home...

Encase you reader are wondering, Leon-kun's house is the closest to a real home I'll ever be

I already feel depressed, but you know what? I won't let that get the best of me..

I'm going to smile and have fun as much as I can when I talk on the phone or online...

because I know nobody needs someone sulking around for two weeks..

(even though I'll be sulking inside ^^ Like Jet without Crest)

But anyway, hopefully this'll pass and the guilt will get to them...

Damn assholes....

But anyway, I gotta stop typing for now because my carple is killing me....

Bye....

[Mint Adnade]

Today...I feel awfully sick so I convinced my dad to come and pick me up from school...

I'm at home now of course, but anyway..


Talked to Casey last night until like 3:00 cause when I got off the phone with Leon, my dad fell asleep around 1:00 -_- and Case called me again...

It was fun talking to him of course, even though my phone bill's probably through the roof now ^^;;;

He informed me that He gets his compy back today and that he can't really sign on until tomorrow..

That sucks, but hey, it's cool. I guess it's official, our characters are hooking up somehow in the RP. He began to tell me about Onogoro, which really helps ^^; and I listen of course..

He also told me about the plot to our big RP of doom.

He thinks ALOT. And he's very intellegent...I'm glad..

Leon doesn't need an idiot for a boyfriend ^^ he's very faithful to her...

I love that about him, he would never hurt her..

Anyway, Talked to Zero and Leon yesterday, they still love my picture, which urges me to draw more for the both of them ^^;
BTW I still love you lots Zero!! And you too Leon!! XDD

Anyway, the rp..I need to level up my character, Case and I are probably going to do that when he gets the chance to..(he hs work today and won't be on for long if he's even on at all) but anyway...

We're going to level up together =D That'll be okay, at least I won't feel alone...

Anyway, I'm pissed off because some idiot Spit on and socked the blind kid John today...

That kid needs his ass kicked! Why the hell would you do that...

but I tell you..that blind kid fought back like he could see...

He's a very nice boy...he doesn't deserve that type of treatment...

He's stronger than any of the normal kids in our school I think...

He has better senses and he must be strong..and smart..having to learn brail and being able to handle walking without site..He lives his life like an everyday Kid..and it makes me glad..

He doesn't see himself as Different, and neither do I.

Anyway, I told that kid he made me sick...he got all mad and told me to shut up..so I told him to make me...

He didn't respond..

Anyway, I vomited in second hour...Really nice way to start the day -_-;;;

But I'll live..

I feel like I'm getting closer and closer to Leon and Zero everyday and It's a nice feeling..

I also feel like I'm getting closer to Case..he IS one of my closest friends...^^;;;;

But anyway, I miss Leon like hell...-_-;;;

I want to see her so badly..and I will, one way or another...

anyway, I'll write later..

Xiao,

Mint-Chan**

[Mint Adnade]

Yesterday was a bad day, and so was today..

I really wanted to see Leon, whether I go there or she comes here...

But she just doesn't want to come here..I really don't understand...my dad is gone..and I even offered to get rid of my sister and she still says no...

So I offered to take her to the movies instead and she says I'm bribing her...yet I offered to take her home afterwards...

She says I'm bribing her to spend time with me..

First of all, no, I was not...

Second of all, is it really that horrible to spend time with me? I'm not pathetic, I don't need to bribe her to spend time with me..

Then she hangs up and says "Fuck you" Well my bad... but Until she can notice what she did and such, I'm not even going to try and get her to be happy with me..

I'm going to do what she tells me to do and leave her alone..*sigh* hopefully she'll come around with time...

Like Sy usually says...all she needs is time...

Let's hope he's right...

anyway, Zero called and I talked to him, and of course, he made me feel better

^^; I got to hear him speak some spanish to his parents, which was cool, because I never heard anyone speak it before...

But anyway, I drew more pics, and we're Rping at the moment ^^

Yay! Just incase you read this, I love you Zero! XDDDD

Anyway, today my head is killing me and I pray for the better...

I'll write later...bye...^^;;

[Mint Adnade]

Today, good day!!! Leon came over last night, she was extremely upset, and despite her saying "Fuck you" on the phone last night, i forgave her because she's my best friend and i was worried for her feelings...

Anyway, we Rped a bit last night and woke up today with arguments between tiff and my mom, and her playing Dark Cloud

^^; yay Toan!!

Anyway, after that Leon, My dad, my little brother, and I all went and got Robbie (my little bro's) his go-kart from Fabio's (Haus) house and watched him speed like the little speed demon he is..

My dad kept saying "Jesus Christ" and "oh, lord, he's haulin' ass" XDD

It was so cute and adorable, and I got to ride it too, then Leon's mom stopped by the high school and told her it was almost time to go because she had to take her meds.

So I gave her a hug, and she left in a good mood. ^^:; Yay!!

And to Zero-kun, Cause I know you read MY cracked out journal, thanks for sending me the feel betters and the hugs! And talking to me on ze phone!! You're the best! *huggle* My favorite! XD

Anyway, I'm drawing more Ryou pics than ever before because Zero seems to love them! Yay! Anyway, I played the comment game with Zero on myspace, so I must comment back on his page!

XDD Anyway, I must go for now, because my sister is once again going to pimp my myspace out!

Xiao, I love you all!!!

<333,

Mint-Chan*

[Mint Adnade]

Yesterday was stressing me the hell out, Sy and Leon seperated and I will say no more because it's really nobody's business but hers, and I feel like it's my fault somehow...but then again I'm glad I told her when I did and that I was there to correct him from trying to make me sound at fault.

Anyway, woke up today with a stuffy nose and headache, sneezed at the bus stop and had to wipe my nose..horrible..@_@

It went flying everywhere! *cries* My body aches from the other day and I tried out for cheerleading, because my COPS test said it'd be a good activity for me..

at first I thought it would mean I'm preppy..but there was a girl who dressed like me there, and I felt more comfortable, the cheers and dance are easy as hell, and besides, I get to wear a uniform and dance to Rihanna's "SOS" I love that song! hopefully I make it..

Anyway, they said We'd be poster children and to mind ourselves in highschool...

I have a choir concert coming up and I'm singing at the Spagetti dinner..

A song called Homeward Bound..

It's a beautiful irish ballad...I love those..

Anyway, It's Ashley Moyer, Brittney Edwards, Crystal Campbell, and Me of course

The sopranos are Ashley and I, and the Altos are Crystal and Brit-bratt.

Anyway, today was a fun day..(after school)

Got a disposable camera..yay! A new pic from my Lovely Aunt sheri (I love her) and a pick of me and ugh...! Nick Snyder! XD

Anyway, I have cheerleading tryouts tomorrow and thursday, and I sing to 5th graders tomorrow..@_@

Scared to death..

Anyway, I married Zero! XDD Lovely Zero, who I hope feels better

and I love you leon and talan! You guys are the best...

I hope to never lose great friends like these...

I'll write later..

Xiao,

<3, Mint-chan**

[Mint Adnade]

Today was a miserable day..

In the morning I woke up, not able to breath from my nose, and my throat raw and sore...I got ready for school in something of a haze, headache and all...Took a shower, and when I got in this gigantic mosquito looking thingy kept flying at me, sent me out of the shower screaming...V_V Yes, I couldn't grab a towel, laugh all you want, but that thing was horrifying..

Anyway, I killed it with a gnar type of feeling and got on the bus, only to hear A.J. talking about how he needed oxycotten's and cocaine..

Then he crossed the line when he asked my sister and I if we had any drugs lately, I told him to go fuck himself and I was tired of hearing him talk about how he destorys himself everyday..

I think he talks about it so much, I don't even think he really does it..I think he's all talk, so people might think he's cooler...

He told me to shut up and that I was a dirty, ugly whore..

Okay, can you tell me how one minute, before we got on the bus, I was this "Hot bitch he wanted to fuck" (-____-) and the next minute I was an ugly dirty whore..is that even possible.? Anyway, I ignore the insult, because he's a fat bastard and I really don't care for a "druggie's" opinion..

Anyway, got off the bus and headed straight for first hour, that's when I got our group picture...

Forrest, Sammy, Jemma, Britney, and Jacob (the jewish kid ^^ cool as hell, the only one I know)

I hate how I look in it, I think it makes me look huge, then again, that's my opinion...

Otherwise, the pic is absolutely darling, ^^; and I got little wallet sized ones they all asked for, so I let them have them. ^^ cause I'm nice...

Forrest did that adorable smile ^^;;;; anyway..

1st hour: Sucked, Mrs.whealen was being really bitchy because we sang to stinky fith graders today..

2nd-3rd hour: Sang to the fith graders

4th hour: Did some Geometry and Probability...I hate probability..

Lunch: I sat at my table, ate lunch quietly, because I was in a bad mood all day, no one at my table really talked but Ashley and Kim...

Then I went outside with Forrest, Dolton, Pat n' Bob (the twins) Nick G, and Alex day and Aaron zoltowski.

It was fun, they were spitting at each other o.o;; they didn't spit at me though..(phew)

Anyway, Took a picture of Forrest, Then Forrest and Sam, then britney and sam and Naja. It was fun..

Got a picture with my Sammy ^^;;;

Then in fith hour we watched the movie of The Diary Of Anne Frank..

6th hour: Went to library to research my insect, The Green Darner Dragon fly..the prettiest of them all besides the emperor.

7th hour: down in the cafeteria talking to Mr.Eastmond and Mrs.Jones about high school classes...

I decided I need to step it up and get serious about High school..I can't afford to Fail..I just can't...

They talked so seriously, I decided I want to be a writer/artist, or Astronomer..something I can enjoy and excel in..

God I'm such a nerd! But I want to be serious and get those 27 credits by graduation...

Anyway, the rest of 7th hour (45 mins left) we played mummy ball, and it was funny because Forrest played even though he couldn't sit on his desk..^^ adorable..

Unfortunatly, he's moving his freshman year to a different school and to Kalamazoo...

I'll miss it..it makes me very upset that he's moving...he's a great friend to me...he has been for years...

anyway, he'll be walking soon, which is good ^^;

Anyway, when I got home, my dad refused to let me go to Leon's...after my mom said yes, and he didn't complain about Tiffani getting ungrounded...

Oh well, just like Leon said, he doesn't care about me and he never will...

It's the cold truth, but it's true...

She tells me like it is, and I repsect that alot...

Anyway, I thought a great deal about love today...Seeing so many couples made me wonder why I can't hold a good relationship...that's all I ever wanted...someone I could confide in...call my own and care for..(I know I have leon, but we both know sometimes we think about guys who will love us too..) I've decided I don't need men, and I'll wait till they fly to me...

Love..pain hurt confusion trust lust envy wrath happiness enjoyment contentment..

Like Zero put..blessing or disease..? You decide...

Anyway, I'm not going to school Friday because of my mom's....abortion...

I hate that thought and the word..the last time she had it...*shudders* I thought she was going to die..it scared me so much...

Anyway, I'll write later..once I feel better..

I love you all who read this...

<3, Mint-chan*

[Mint Adnade]

Today was a good day, Didn't feel good in the morning though...

Bus: Not alot, just talked to the girl with the cloak cause someone was messing with her and I decided I was going to stand up for her because she didn't do anything bad today...

First hour: Not alot, just practiced our song for Mrs.Whealen, who says we sound pretty, ^^ Great! She says she can't wait until the spagetti dinner, neither can I...

Second hour: Not alot here either, called home, but my mom refused to pick me up, of course, like always, and I lost my voice..@_@ I felt better later though...

Third: Watched Anne Frank...I admire Margot alot, I want to be like her, calm and serene and smart ^^ her voice soothed me...but anyway...I made another goal for high school..i've decided to be quiet and get stuff done..^^ that's what I want to do..

Fourth: Probability of course..found out there's a sub tomorrow..YAY!! That means we'll get to lunch faster ^^;;;

Lunch: Chilaxed with Forrest, screamed at Chris monroe to stop following me...XDD I told Forrest I signed up for the bus to Cedar point and all and he said "Don't say anymore, because you're sitting next to me..." and I was like "Yay!" Cause he roxs...I got the last seat on there! ^^;;

fith: Argued with some jerk who kept messing with my friend Arthur....told him he deserved to be socked like the other kid who always beats up on him..he got pissed and threatened me..so I told him to do something and MAKE me shut the fuck up...He said "You're lucky you're a girl" So I socked him....he didn't do anything to me, like expected, he started crying..o.o;;

sixth: Chilaxed with Shenne and Studied the Green Darner Dragonfly (look it up, it's beautiful) started my project and pinned a butterfly (which I'm not afraid to touch ^^) and then headed to seventh hour..

Seventh: Sat by forrest and joked and played around alot ^^ It went fast like usual, Krasts was cool today..but Anilla scared the crap out of me..sneaking up behind me and screaming "HI!" while I was working..I about socked her...(on impulse) but I wouldn't because she's mentally unstable..

Bus to home: Some asshole kept messing with my sister so I told him off, like three times...Some kid named John middleton or something...he got what he deserved though lol, he shut up too...

anyway...talked to leon last night and she made me feel better, didn't see Zero on so I missed him sooooo much!! <333 My husbend was gone, ne? XD anyway, hope y'all feel good today like I did..

Love you always reader...

<3, Super Kawaii Mint-chan

[Mint Adnade]

Yesterday and today have been great days! Say yay for ze Mint one Readers!!

Yaaaaaaaayyy~~~~

Anyway, Yesterday I didn't go to school because I had to watch my brother....my little brother couldn't go to school because he had no one to pick him up and my mom refuses to let him ride the bus...Why did I have to watch him I ask..?

If I tell you, will you all promise not to say anything to my sister? Good, cause if you do...I'll rip either your cliterous or your balls off..depends on which you have ^^ *giggles* anyway, my mom had to get her abortion pills because we can't afford another baby..I didn't feel bad about it until Leon let me hear a song about abortion from the baby's point of view by Dir en Grey..she led me through the lyrics..like...one of them was.."All I wanted was a mother to love me..." Then something about "Tore out missing my right arm.." like it wasn't developed yet...

I wanted to cry, but I held it in..because I want to be strong for Leon...if I cry, I feel like I burden her or let her down...

anyway, it was a good, creepy song non-the-less..then I heard some great songs by Gackt..

<3333 anyway, (that was today btw) Like I just revealed, I went to leon's yesterday as soon as my sister and all of her friends got here...

Went to leon's and played this awesome "I spy" game for like hours..^^ it was fun..spent some time with Mom and Leon...

Then Leon and I went and chilaxed in her room. ^^;; <33 quality time..(in between that) sy called and apologized to Leon...She accepted but she said her door's closed to him...she doesn't want him back..

I'm proud of her, she doesn't need him, she really doesn't...

anyway, talked to Zero thrusday, lol we were all posting on the board, I drew more pics that I'm scanning as we speak of course...

Got yelled at by Talan for saying Zero's my husband on the board..-_- I don't understand why people complain about us and not Nyquil...

Doesn't matter, some people can't take a joke..

Ahead of Zero in the comment game, yay!! Also responded to his survey he responded to for meh...

Payed leon the money I owed her and Found a bunch of my bracelets because she cleaned her room

yay!!! I'm glad..

Her mommy cleaned my unmentionables for me that I left there from taking showers XDDD I know it's gross, but hey, at least they're clean now!!!

Anyway, watched some Dark Cloud, before that Leon and I kept playing jokes on her sister as she was on the phone, pressing buttons and listening to her little friend freak about who was pressing them, then turning the other phone off so we could laugh...

It was funneh as hellz!!

Anyway, Had to go home because my mom's going to need our help...my mom used me as a makeup sampler for her new 13 dollar mineral makeup..she says she's going to buy me some tomorrow when she can walk again (the pill really kills her insides when she takes it T_T) and I told her she didn't have to...but she insists because she says The only thing ugly about my face is that my skin tone is uneven (V_V gee thanks lol)

Anyway, only a few weeks of school left, which makes me more upset about Forrest moving...

I think about it everyday...V_____V Anyway, I'll get over it..

Drawing more pics for Rubems and I'm also drawing a certain someone a pic of someone from Inu

NOT TELLING BECAUSE YOU READ THIS! HAH!!!

But most of you can probably guess who it is, because I love them so..

anyway, going to go for now, I love you all, especially You Leon, Zero, you guys I love the most


<33333 you all!!


<3, the amazing super squeaky Mint-chan*

[Mint Adnade]

*sigh* Ahh....Mint ish very tired today...Last night was crazy, and Today has barely begun..where to begin where to begin..

Okay, so I got home and everything was calm and quiet...then my dad came upstairs and my sister showed him her high school scheduel for next year, he stared to scream at her because she asked him to sign it...

well, it wasn't even rude, she just set the paper on the counter and said "Daddy, please sign this.." he goes "Stop fucking shoving that in my face!" and starts to scream at everyone..

my mom has a freakin' cow and tells him that he's being an asshole...I keep my mouth shut in fear of getting in trouble for a stupid reason..My dad goes downstairs in a bad mood and my mom asks me to help her take the second dreded pill she needs to take..so I help her...

She lays down and starts to cry, because it hurts her so...so I lay by her like she asked me to and talked to her..made her laugh, because for some reason she thinks the word "hootenany" is funny...^^;; you know...like a party..? We heard it on Camp Laslo, a silly show about a monkey at a camp...

Anyway, she goes to the bathroom and starts to scream and cry and Begs me sister to come in...my sister goes "No, ew, you're disgusting" (stupid bitch) so I go in and My mom holds out the most depressing sight i've ever seen in my life...

Her baby, fully developed but tiny...you could see everything....

Why Do I mention this..? Because I had to go into the bathroom when she was done and vomit...because the sight sticks in my head, haunts me for saying "We can't afford another" makes me feel like I pursuaded her into "murdering her baby" I only went to see what she wanted because she was crying..she told me she feels like a murderer and she will always feel that way...

Leon's against it...now I definatly am too...I never approved of the killing part..Just the free will part...

it still haunts me as we speak..I had a nightmare about it last night...the thing was talking to me...

THE WORST THING EVER....

Anyway, Leon's sister had her baby yesterday, yay!! A baby boy...6 pounds 13 inch head...like 20 inches long..Not sure...

something along the lines of that...he was a long baby...because his dad was really tall ^^;; I told leon and mom that he'd be a basketball player when he got older...=)

I'm happy for Tammy, the day before mother's day...had to be the greatest mother's day present eveah..<333 I can't wait to see him...I feel like an Aunt Now..because that's my family...and I love them more than anything..

anyway, I watched some videos last night, listened to music, and watched a video of Gackt being spanked at a Bon fire at the beach in his tight white pants ^^;; so cute...

he screams like a girl...it was funneh...

Missed Zero all yesterday, as he must have missed me friday..

You hear me Zero, ALL YESTERDAY!!! lol ^^;; I forgive him though, he was mother's day shopping...

Anyway, we got my mom some light pink roses and some cards...she won't open them until my retarded asshole father wakes up..

he bought them at 5:00 in the morning because he forgot about it until then because of his stupid game..that asshole...

anyway, Talking to Zero now, I feel pressured by talan to stop talking to him for some reason, but hey, Zero's a really good friend of mine, so I'm going to keep myself out of the drama and just be me..

anyway, I drew new pics so go take a look at my aspiring artists thing..

Love you all readers, specially the ones I mentioned before ^_^;;;

<3, the super amazing squeaky minty-chan*

[Mint Adnade]

Ah...I welcome you to read my day today readers...Today is Monday, May 15th, 2005..and it's actually been a good day..

I've got A pic of Suna done so Zero can draw her with Ryou and Renji like he said he wanted to..it's rather cute, that and I got more Ryou and renji pics done...R+R baby!!

Anyway, let me start off with my day..

First hour: just sang, found out that tomorrow first thing in the morning I'll be heading to the high school to practice my performance with The high school choir...Maybe I'll see Leon? Maybe..YAY!!! ^^;; We're to report to the Choir room FIRST THING in the morning to get on the bus to start singing..we'll be there until 9:00 or so I believe...*shrug* Maybe earlier, maybe later....We sound great I think...Cantate domino..Cante ku na voom..cantante domino...oh ves tera...I love that song..^^;; anyway...

second hour: Mrs.Overholt was in a bad mood, I guess everyone was bad for the sub when I was gone and she did tell us she'd make our lives miserable today if we weren't good for him...on top of that, she's starting to show how pregnant she is..yay! She can be rude, but she was joking with me the entire day ^^ because I was the only one who turned in my progress report <333 It was great then, I got most of my science project for my Lovely Shenne ^^;; Anyway...

Thrid Hour: Mrs.Korduple was being Mrs.Korduple...big 50 pt assignment I haven't even started on.....@_@ I'll get to it...Sean said I could read his book Night if I'd draw his butterfly for him...Thank lord, I got it done already, and we don't start writing until May 27th or 28th..Yatta! I was calling that in my head the entire time ^^;;;

Fourth: Got in trouble with Mr.Smith because this little bitch was messing with my friend Sammy...My little sis ^^;; he goes "are you getting mouthy with me" and I said "what if I am..?" So he sent me to class without another word...*shrug* all we did was work on probability...god I hate it..@_@ So easy yet so confusing...anyway..

Lunch: Chilaxed with Forrest again, because the thought of him leaving still burns in my head from time to time..^^ he was the nicest ever today..He uses one Cruch now....He's so close to being able to walk again!!! I can't wait, then I can hug him while he's standing up, again!! he's so tall, ish awesome ^^; Plus, I got another group pic, and I have another one coming tomorrow..because I was in like Six..@_@ Because right after I stepped out of the stage from getting one taken I was dragged into another...Ashley says ish because I'm a girl everyone wants to be, I don't believe her though..xDDD I'll show you all the pic when I'm ready to show you how fat my arms are..@_@;;;; My mom says I just have muscle...Anyway..

Fith: Movie with Korduple again, nothing new...cept Charles was buggin' me..Oh well, I kept my mouth shut and watched the movie..

sixth: headed straight to the computer lab because Shenne left a note on the door directing us to go there..that a-hole XDDD He made us walk half way around the school <33 Anyway, Got most of my project done!! Yay! Talked to Ashley and Talked to Shenne..then it was off to seventh hour..

Seventh: we watched a movie in there too...so my day went fast...Just chilaxed with Forrest and talked to Brandon too...

Home: I got home and nobody was home, apparently tiffani went to the doctor for her "depression" Which isn't really depression, just Houston being an asshole...I think she just wants attention...

When I told my dad that I just felt like dying sometimes, he laughed and said I was being dramatic..@_@ Oh well...

not to mention, before I stepped on the bus talan told me he was leaving the board because of unknown reasons and kept asking why my DUMBASS EAVESDROPPING SISTER said that Zero and I were mad at him....okay...

Number one, Zero isn't mad at him..I am...Zero didn't say anything of the sort...

number two, I'm tired of Talan pestering me about Talking to Zero so much because of something I won't mention...

Talan knows though, and I already talked to that person and she said she doesn't care that I talk to Zero...

So anyway..I'ma go now...MY song for the day (that i've never named before) is Devil Inside by Utada Hikaru** I love her and the song...Xiao!

-<3, Minty-chan**

[Mint Adnade]

Ahh..today's been so confusing..and Fun yes!

Bus: Sat with Amanda, I've been getting along with her lately, and it makes me feel better because I found out she likes many similar things to me...We're alike In many ways! She likes Gackt now, because I let her hear him..anyway

first hour: Nothing much, just sang of course, cause my concert's tonight..

2nd hour: took ashley's books to class because she said I could, now I can't find them, and it pisses me off because she trusted me with her stuff and now I can't find them..-_- I will find them!! I will!! All we really did was work..we have work days from now on..

3rd hour: Gave my slip to Ms.korduple of course, she never did give it back..I'm sure she will..anyway..

4th: caught up with late work, joked with Mrs.Overholt of course

Lunch: I snuck and sat at Forrest's table, we had fun, we put a piece of cookie in Dolton's juice and he got really mad *giggles* but it was funny..then we put a grape in Devin's...It was hilareous, Forrest wanted to do it so bad, I took the drink from the kid and gave it to him, then Dolton said he wanted to kick forrest's ass and I told him he wouldn't, then I stood by him at lunch..we walked inside together and I got super hugged...<33 I'm in a huggy mood today, and very nervous about our Concert...

5th: watched a movie, wrote a paper, Mrs.Korduple said that I write with such feeling and emotion she thinks I should become a writer when I grow older...It made me feel good ^^;;

6th: chased bugs around all hour and I saw forrest and dolton outside! Yay! We went out back and played around, Forrest kept giving me hugs ^^; he can walk now, but he has a horrible limp...so people started to call him Gimpy..xDDD poor guy..he uses one Cruch now so he can walk straight up.

7th: Chilaxed, another sub, I sat up in my seat and stood for a second, then Mr.Richard Forrest Dodson got smart on me and put his hand on my seat so when I sat back down, he squeezed my butt >_<! I almost had a heart attack...he says he gave my buttcheek a high five XDDDDDD!! Anyway, he's lucky it was him, or I would have socked him...

Blew him a kiss goodbye again and he asked me to come over to his house when I have time this weekend..I told him I HAVE To spend time with my best friend ^_^ because I always want to be around her..

he said he understood and I should come over when I'm done being there..so I told him okay...


anyway, on the bus home I was quiet...that was my day..I missed talking to Zero last night, and Seraph and I..we got into an argument..so I spent time with Blade...we made up now though, but not completely..he says he still needs "time" so I'm giving it to him..

anyways, bye for now..

Song of the day: The last Song-Gackt