NyQuil's vita

[Luna]

[glow=red,2,300] Attention! YOU NOW HAVE MY PERMISSION TO POST IN MY JOURNAL![/glow]

Man, today really wasn't the greatest day. I had to cry because I miss my dog so much. I don't know why, but all of the sudden, it hit me. She looked almost exactly like this:

All I can think about is Patrick and my mom freaked out when she saw me working on one of the logos for this site. I think she saw the fire one. By the way, all the logos were made by me. I hope you like at least one.
I love my [glow=red,2,300] Chicken [/glow]

[glow=blue,2,300] ~NyQuil [/glow]

[Luna]

I'm hungry. Haven't you all noticed... that, I'm ALWAYS hungry? lol. I seem to find that I am.
At the moment, Patrick is sleeping on my bed and I'm listening to The Game by Disturbed. Awwe, so cute. He stole my Canada blankie and is wrapped up in it... Eeeeeeee! So cute! If only I could keep from giggling because he ...ever so slightly snores... *giggle* Yeah I know you guys don't really care... or something... Oh, hey now KoRn is playing on my lovely WinAmp. Hey you, hey you, devils little sistah... Listening to your Twisted Transistah, hold it between your legs... turn it up, turn it up...
Yeh.
NyQuil

[Luna]

Man, I hate this. I'm so freakin nervous. It's only 19 days until the concert. AHH!!
I'm in love with someone and... I still have to love Patrick. I got a new kitty though and I named him Patrick. So, it is a little confusing, I know. So I call the human, Patrick-love and I call the feline my Patrick-kitty. I'm sad right now though, because he has a kitty cold. He has to take 50mg of Amoxicillin every 12 hrs. He's coughing and sneezing everywhere.
Poor kitty. I'll post some pictures later.

[Luna]

OMFG 5 DAYS UNTIL THE CONCERT!!! AHHH!!!!

[Luna]

I LOVE KENNY!!! hahahaaaaaa.... wheeeeeeeeee. llama. ^^;; I love my chicken.

[Luna]

[glow=blue,2,300]YOU MAY COMMENT IN MY JOURNAL![/glow]
Ah! Wow.
I think I'll follow your formats if you don't seem to mind.

GET TO SCHOOL: Wow, fuck I got there late. Kenny wasn't at the table, so I sat there being pissed until the bell rang. Kattie wasn't there either

BIOLOGY: I friggin slammed my binder down on the table and glared at Kenny for a full two minutes until he came over and asked what was wrong. I asked him if he had the decency to WAIT for me to get to school and he said he was sorry and gave me a puppy dog face. I glared at him for five seconds and looked the other way until Roxxy got there and said, "LUNA! SMILE OR I WILL FUCKIN' SMACK YOU!" I sat there and while glaring I said, "NO." and she smacked me. Big deal, I'm used to it now. Kenny sat there next to me all hour trying unsuccessfully to cheer me up until I finally got lonely and started poking him back... and then he tickled my palm and we ended up holding hands through the rest of the movie. (The Medicine Man)

SEMINAR: I have no clue what Talan was pissed at me about. I asked if it was the phone thing and he said that was part of it and told me to read his journal. I did...but...that was the only thing he mentioned. Oh, well, I'm trying to be nice. I noticed if someone's in a pissy mood around me, I will be for the rest of the day. It's annoying because SOMEONE in my small friend group is pissed every day.

HISTORY: Went down to the computer lab to do a dumb-ass report. I got a screen that has a flickering yellow colourgun in it--how lucky. It was really annoying. Those screens are new! How the hell can a colourgun be dying? Slept after we got back at 10:30.

LUNCH: No one was really there except Ruby and of course Kenny, but... he's almost always attached to me in some way or another. I wish lunch was longer. Romes went home early...

HEALTH: Watched a movie about STIs with a lady talking about how GOD MADE SEX and blah blah blah about GOD and sex and STIs...She was...scaring the crap out of me, so I decided to go to sleep.

SPANISH 2: Only Tim and I in our group today... No homework... had some laughter and Donna's probably going to bring cupcakes for her birthday. (My teacher goes NUTS over cupcakes, they're like god to her)

LEFT SCHOOL: Kenny carried my books out to the car, still attached like a leach at the hand...


Everyone should really learn that if they have a nasty home life (which keeps getting worse for me all the time) that school is the escape from it! Why be in a bad mood and infect your friends with it?
I try so hard every day not to be affected by the endless:
"I'm going to kill myself"
"My sister is really pissing me off"
"My brother is a fuckwad"
"I hate my dad"
"My moms a bitch"
"WHORE!"
"MOVE YOUR FAT ASS!"
"EXCUSE YOU!
"Liar, she's fucking lying to me"
"I can't take it anymore"
"My teachers a bitch"
"I hate you"
"Shut [the fuck] up!"
"SHH!"
"I don't care"
"You're being a bitch today..."

Now do you get it? DO YOU UNDERSTAND? DO YOU EVENCARE?!

Now, don't plague me anymore, it's the end of the school year and I'd like it to end nicely.

Talan, if you think I'm ignoring you with Kenny, think about what you do to me with Lindsay first.

Lindsay and Ruby (Ruby is great, but LINDSAY?! you fight with her all the time!) are always your top priorities, so if I'm not yours, you're not mine.
Don't tell me any more I don't want to know.

You want a list of all the things I have to think about?
here!
1. Not losing Kenny
2. Trying not to fight or argue with any of my friends
3. Passing my classes
4. What's wrong with me.
5. Trying to keep my friends (and keep them happy)
6. All the new rules I have to face
7. SUMMER! NO! NO !!!!
8. A doctors note for 10th grade gym class
9. Getting enough sleep
10. Who I can trust (obviously not very many people)
11. Trying to avoid a summer activity other than teaching Kenny spanish

there's a lot more, but those are the most important.

GOOD DAY SIR!

[Leon Magnus]

Good day sir XD

Uhm Luna, I understand how you feel, ^_^ Please talk to me if you ever have anything bug you..I will listen to ya! That's what a good friend is for. To listen and to speak when she or he is done.

I'm here for you too.

[Luna]

Haha...
This I do not take responsibility for because these are not my words, nor am I the creator of this topic. I swear on my grave.



I'm sorry.

[Luna]

Well, fuck, let's recap last night.
Dad came down and lectured me for 3 fucking hours about blah. blah and your mom is going to have a breakdown if you don't tell me what's bothering her...blah

I came upstairs and cried, screaming help me to mom and what the hell did she do? NOTHING.
I was tempted to swallow all the aspirin in my hand, but my dad smacked it the fuck out of my hand before I got it to my mouth and threw the bottle at me, screaming, "You aren't good enough to kill yourself, bitch. What the fuck do you think youre doing? DON'T YOU THINK I CARE ABOUT YOU!? BUT NOOOOO SOMEBODYS GOT TO BE A LITTLE TEENAGE BITCH AND THROW HER LIFE AWAY! STUPID SHIT! I DON'T WANT YOU TO SEE THIS BOYFRIEND OF YOURS ANYMORE, HE'S MAKING YOU SUICIDAL LIKE JORDAN DID LAST YEAR! FUCKING TEENAGE BOYS!!"
Well...after I went through all that, I decided maybe a dog leash would be better.
I hung for a full two minutes screaming for help to untie it. No one helped. Finally when I decided to carry through just hanging, Kenny called. I never thought he would call me back. I quickly untied the stupid leash and tripped all the way down the stairs, still crying when I answered the damn phone.
He asked me what was wrong and I told him. I told him that if he called any later I would've been dead. Thank you everyone, I would've been dead if it wasn't for Kenny.
I told him all the abuse I've been through all my life and what I just did... It made him cry. I can't believe that would actually...make him cry... He asked me why I didn't try to live for him.
I told him. When you're on your death bed, you don't think about the happy things in your life, you think about all the pain going on. He told me he didn't want to see me get hurt or for me to hurt myself. He told me he loved me and he always will. He said that if I needed to call him, I could call him at any time to talk about anything.
I told him...No one cares, because they're too pre-occupied with their own lives.
He said to me..."You are my life. I couldn't live without you"
Why does this happen to me?
I would hope that no one should ever go through as much pain as I go through, dealing with everyone's problems. Oh, I deal with them, even if you don't think I'm listening. I do listen, I can't handle so much stress that everyone has. I TRY not to take it on, but I can't help myself.
I need to sleep, I need everyone to stop being so damn tough on me and I need my friends to not go through this stuff.
If one person goes through this, their friends do too.
If one person suffers, everyone does.

I'm okay for now, but I'm not so sure about my future. Everyone is ruining it for me.
I want some quality time with my fiancee'.

[Luna]

[whisper=admin,nyquil]I dry humped Kenny the other day...[/whisper]

It was fun...

[Luna]

Mooobles and poop. Grr, chhickenllamas and stuff.

Noot fargla and xixxles

[Luna]

Yeah... wow it's been a long time, eh...?
Well, hmm... I have plenty of stuff to write about... One thing is... I'm hungy.. I mean hungry.. and another is, I'm sad... that the only way that Kenny can get money now is to donate his blood plasma which is very painful... they have take a crapload of his blood out of him, then take the plasma out of the blood and re-stick the blood in him. Owie! I can't stand it when they only take the blood out of me. I've never had them stick something back in.